Scary University decisions

For those of you who don't already know I currently attend Sixth form and will soon have to begin applying to University..but this really isn't as easy as it seems, at least in my head it isn't.
Everybody seems to say a different thing about University depending on their perspective.

Sixth form says 'go go go' - because of statistics and their reputation, they don't actually seem to care too much about the individual apparently...
Graduates either do exactly what they want and get the job they wanted or they end up doing a job completely unrelated to their degree which could potentially be seen as a waste of £30,000..
My parents personally try to stay objective and just want me to be happy I think but there is always that pressure to do well of course because I want to make my parents proud which is pretty normal I think.
Friends say no, its a waste of time, you'll have to make all new friends if you go to University and move away and lets not forget about the dept.
Other people just say that you should go to University if you know exactly what job you want to have etc but who really truly knows EXACTLY what job they can get which will satisfy them for their whole entire lives, of course there are some exceptions but I'm definitely not one of them.

So at the moment, deciding on whether I should even attend University is very very blurry. Personally, I'm a very undecided, easily influenced person who can change their life goals in a split second making the choice even harder.

Then there's the part of choosing a course and a place to go to and where to live and ahhhh so much to think about. It just all seems crazy and scary because making the wrong decision here could really negatively impact what happens in the future from my perspective.

Some people would say that an apprenticeship or a different alternative to university is a better option but then you hear the statistics such as ' Graduates Earn £200,000 more than those without a degree'. ( http://www.graduates.co.uk/the-graduate-premium/) Yeah, I'm just a little bit stuck and confused right now I guess :(

So please if you have an opinion or any suggestions on how I can make the right decision for me, I would love to hear about it!! Or maybe you're going through the same problems as me, let me know and we can discuss!

At the end of the day, I find security in thinking that whatever happens, will happen for a reason. 
For example If I completely fail my a-levels, then maybe I was never meant to go to uni but something else will crop up.
(This will also help me cope on results day haha..)

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What is the point?

Do you ever sit there at the brink of explosion wondering, what is the point?

I do this increasing amounts everyday, and its kind of getting scary now. It's like you've worked hard all day at work/college etc and then you come home, have to do the housework, look after siblings, go to the gym whatever it is. Then at the weekends you may have a part time job or you may have to dedicate your time to something else like seeing family for example.
Now, when do you get a break? When do you get to sit down and just relax?

There seems to never be a time to just be happy.

Personally, I feel like in this life, you don't ever get to relax and be content. You're always on the move for work, other people, anything. There is always something that's broken/wrong in life.

This could just be me who's having a bit of a shit time at the moment but maybe not. All this just makes me think; whats the point in living if you're not happy?

Why would anyone want to live 80 years complaining and having a miserable time?!?!?

I know I certainly wouldn't.

It's just that my life course ahead of me seems so depressing.

Age 5 = Start school. (this process refers to my life as a person in Britain).

Age 16 = Finish school and join a college/sixth form/apprenticeship.

Age 18 = Finish a-levels (etc) and go to uni.

Age 21 = Finish University and go into employment.

Work for the next 45 years approximately, just trying to earn enough money for my family etc.

Age 66 = Retire and enjoy living for a few years (about 4).

Age 70 = Get some sort of age-related disease.

Age 80+ = Probably die from some painful disease.

The End.

Personally this sounds utterly awful. Who would want to go from education, work, retirement and then practically death??

                                                            What is the point?

I just think that the society we live in is somehow broken and people can't enjoy themselves anymore, no wonder the depression rate is so high nowadays.

The thing is though, WE ARE THE LUCKY ONES.

In my situation, I am very privileged. I have a roof over my head, a loving family who will support me, food for every meal and many lovely luxuries which I take for granted. I know that this is very very wrong but unless you've not had those wonderful things then how can you develop appreciation for them?

 So when you put it like that, suddenly our life course looks bright. We are lucky to have schools and an opportunity for an education. We are lucky to be able to go into employment and earn money. We are lucky that we can retire as many people across the world have to work till their dead.

Why does it look so bleak then? 

And how can we start appreciating the things we take for granted because that needs to happen immediately if we ever want to be happy.

Honestly, I have no idea.

Okay so that was just something to think about, pretty damn deep but hey. Have a nice day, let me know what you think.

 

Things change/Perception

Over the past couple of months things have changed, going to go with a solid 8 or so.

So so so much has changed. It can be very scary to think about how everything can stay the same for a very long time and then one day, bang.

Friendships that you thought were going to last a lifetime becuase you'd hung out for the past 4 years practically everyday and then you find out that they hated you all along. Its an amazing experience if you haven't had that one already..

Or the opposite side of that and people who you thought 'na I'll never be friends with them, eugh' you end up being very close to them. Its scary. Pretty much everything in our world is exactly what we make of it. Of course we can't change other people decisions which could in turn affect us but we can almost make anything happen if you believe in it enough and want it enough.

Now yeah, that does sound really silly. "If you want it enough, you can get it". Obviously you couldn't just nip to Tescos and buy a unicorn because you wanted one, thats not going to happen.

But If something in your life is upsetting you, someone or something then hope is not lost. Of course not everything goes by this principle and thats not what I'm saying.
All it is, is that if you really want that thing then there is a way to it becuase your world that you see out of your eyes is exactly what you make of it.

How do we know that this world we live in isn't just what we've created in our own minds?

Perception can't be the answer but?



Kind diverted off of the subject there but hey ho, this is just a way of emptying my mind I guess aha..